Playing Our Roles: How does culture’s invention of gender typecast every last one of us?
August 24, 2021
Glennon Doyle:
Welcome back to We Can Do Hard Things. Sister, whose name is Amanda, and who shall be called Amanda heretofore, and Abby and I are thrilled and delighted that you have decided to come back and share an hour of your precious life with us. We will try desperately not to waste your time. And I don’t think we will waste your time today because we are talking about an issue that applies and affects every single one of us on this beautiful, strange Earth, which is gender.
Abby Wambach:
Woooo.
Amanda Doyle:
Woot. Woot.
GD:
This is the most exciting topic for Abby and Amanda and me, this is like all we talk about. So we are super excited to invite you into our ongoing, relentless conversation about gender roles and how they affect our experience on this Earth, and how they affect other people’s experience of us. We shall solve it today, I think we shall solve gender.
AW:
Oh gosh.
AD:
You know what I think I figured out is that thinking back on the Fun episode of what I couldn’t think of anything that was fun, I feel like as a gender studies major about to do a podcast on gender, I feel like this must be what people think of when they think of fun.
GD:
You’re smiling.
AW:
That’s amazing.
AD:
I feel like this is fun. Yeah.
AW:
Yes.
GD:
All right. We’ll see. We will see won’t we? We will see. So one of the reasons we decided to have this conversation today is well, Abby, you and I had an interesting talk. You told me that you were speaking on the phone to one of your dear friends
AW:
Mm-hmm.
GD:
and that you were talking about the beautiful thing that’s happening among so many kiddos who are deciding that they identify most closely with being non-binary, right? And tell us what you and your friend said to each other.
AW:
Well, for those who are living under a rock, the pronoun world is changing and rapidly evolving, and the non-binary world is gaining… I wouldn’t say popularity, but people are ascribing to it, and feeling like that makes more sense than the gender roles that most of us know as female or male, right? So all of the kids these days are coming out as non-binary, “They/them.” And I was texting my friend who I adore, we were born like three or four days apart, we’re like soul sisters. And I just was talking to her about how I feel like I missed it. It just so happened to pass me by; the kids who were born in the ’70s and ’80s who might feel like me, have worked really hard, I think. And by the way, this is my experience, I understand that there’s going to be a lot of 40- and 50-year-olds that choose to go down and walk the path of they/them, which is cool and amazing, and I am here for it. But for me, I think that I’ve done a lot of personal work. I haven’t really been a girl or a boy, my whole life. I’ve just been somewhere in the middle, all along. And I was like, not wearing my shirt. My mom at one point, she’s like, “Hey honey, you need to wear a shirt, you’re 13.”
GD:
That’s bullshit.
AW:
And I’m like, “Okay, but why do my brothers get to run around without shirts on that?”
GD:
Why, indeed?
AW:
That doesn’t feel right. So I just want to give love to the folks out there who might find themselves in my position, where it’s confusing to see all these kids have a freedom, or a word, or a claim to something that wasn’t available to me at the time, or so I understood it, definitively speaking.
GD:
The reason why we’re having this conversation today is that I got on the interwebs recently, and said something that I thought was just common sense. I don’t think I explained it right, because as per usual, the interwebs had many, lo, so many feelings about it. So it was this, and Abby, I want you to explain the situation that happens to our family, and we do experience it as an entire family thing. But it’s happening to you, and I would say it happens maybe 50% of every time we go anywhere in public, and that is that you are publicly misgendered by strangers over and over again. Can you just briefly explain to us how it happens and how it feels when it happens?
AW:
Yeah, in the world, out in the wild, this, she/her has to pee, or go number two every once in a while in public restrooms. It’s just the reality, right? When I’m flying on planes, the irony of airplanes being non-gendered is amazing, I pee in more airplane bathrooms than is probably healthy, just because I feel safe there, right? Nobody’s going to call me out. But here’s the story that always happens: I walk into a women’s restroom because I am a she/her, and I immediately get a sinking in my stomach feeling. It’s a trauma that has to happen over and over again. I have to put armor on, I have to get the kind of strength somebody would need, I feel like, to go into another trauma of their life, every time I walk into a public restroom, because I know somebody is going to have a problem. So the way that I dress, I’m always wearing a hat, because I don’t want to be noticed in the world every single minute of the day. So I’m always wearing a hat, I’m tall, I’m muscular, and I dress more masculine than feminine. And so, every single time I walk into the bathroom, somebody always tries to save me from myself, thinking that I have entered into the wrong bathroom.
And so, it’s a kindness, but what ends up happening is they are like, “I’m sorry, you’re in the wrong restroom.” Right? And what ends up happening, well, I’ve already fixed my voice, because I also have a lower voice than the average female woman. And so, I automatically fix my voice to raise up a few octaves and I’m like, “Hi,” I like almost try to beat people to the punch, because there’s inevitably have this moment of embarrassment for them, and then me, and then I feel embarrassed for them, so there’s like this victim… I feel like I’m re-traumatizing myself every single time-
GD:
And then, you end up making them feel better. I see that all over again. Then you’re suddenly like, “It’s okay. You’re okay.”
AW:
“It’s fine, don’t worry about it.” But I can’t explain to you how actually upsetting it is, and how embarrassing it is for me, for some reason. I don’t know if that’s just my problem, but I do know that there are a lot of people in my position that walk into restrooms that are walking into the lion’s den of shame, of fear, of questions. Why can’t people just look at my face, and believe and trust that I am making an adult choice to walk into the correct room?
GD:
And then it also happens a million other times. So the bathroom is the most traumatic, but most of the time when people are trying to be polite by adding that gendered greeting that we’ve all agreed upon of “Sir,” “Ma’am,” “Gentlemen,” Madame,” whatever people say.
AW:
“Madame.”
GD:
Well, I mean, I’ve heard that.
AW:
Madam.
GD:
Whatever the hell the word is, “Sir/ma’am” mostly, right?
AW:
Yep.
GD:
They say, “Sir,” to you all the time.
AW:
Yep, I’m a, “Sir.”
GD:
“Thank you, sir. Thank you, sir, sir, sir, sir, sir.” And can you tell how that feels? Because you have explained to me how it feels one way when you’re alone, but when you’re with me and the kids, how it feels different?
AW:
Well, if you could imagine doubling down on the shame and embarrassment, times like a billion, I don’t know why. Maybe there’s a psychologist out there that can help me sort through some of this stuff, but especially with the kids, I don’t know if there’s like… It’s like somebody calling you by the wrong name forever, and you just being like, “Yep, that’s my life. That’s my experience here.” And every person, it’s so sweet, you all do it in one way or another, but every friend of mine, there’s like this over, like, ‘You don’t even look like a boy.” I mean, the truth is, I do. I do present masculine. I get it. So part of me feels like, “Well, isn’t this what you’re kind of going for?” But the other part of me that is solidly in my she/her pronouns and gender identity feels sad. Feels really sad.
GD:
Yeah. So, this is what I was talking about on the internet, and I do not think for me the question is, ‘Well, do you look like a girl or boy?” They should be able to figure out, I think that for me, the question is, why is gender something that we have all decided we get to call out, and guess for other human beings, right? Why have we decided that gender is the thing that we get to label strangers as, okay?
AW:
That’s good.
GD:
And the intention is often good manners and kindness. That’s what we have to call out here. It is a Southern thing, it is a familial thing, it is the culture of the military. There’s a lot of cultures that use, “Sir,” and, “Ma’am” as good manners. But the thing is that there are times in our culture where, what is good manners stops matching to what is kind, and good, and right. And whenever we have to choose between good manners, and kindness, and inclusiveness, we choose kindness.
And what I would suggest about these gendered greetings is that, even if the intention is that they are kind, that we’ve moved past it. Because here’s the idea: Gender is part of our identity. It’s not something we can see with our eyes, and guess at. It’s something that people have to reveal to us, and we understand this about race, about nationality, about sexuality. We would never go up to a stranger and, they hand us our plane ticket, say, “Thank you, lesbian, white, Irish woman.” We don’t guess identity, okay? So let’s stop guessing gender. It’s not, “Oh, we’re being snowflakes.” It’s not, “Oh, we’re being snowflakes.” It’s not, “Oh, you’re so sensitive, you’re offended by everything.” It’s like, no, listen, it hurts.
AW:
Yeah.
GD:
So why stick to it?
AW:
Well, there’s something to be said, too, though, about this idea that we need to put ourselves in these boxes so that we can organize and structure what we are. Because the truth is, I think every human being does know that there’s vastness and infinite abilities and identities inside of all of us, right? And so because of that known fact, it’s terrifying. How am I ever going to define my life or my roles here or my purpose here? So I need to be put into this female or male role. And Glennon, you and I talk about this all the time, because this stuff comes up for me all the time and for you all the time in many different ways. And I think in the end, it’s just like, again, we are on a spectrum and we have to, as people, keep evolving with the times to make sure that we are living the most wild and precious and beautiful life we can imagine.
GD:
Yeah.
AD:
And that’s true. And this story about you being misgendered is so important, and I get why that’s so deeply traumatic to you. It’s the world constantly telling you, “You don’t fit here. You don’t belong here. This is not your place. You don’t match.” The constant, the world telling you that in 1000 ways. But what I see happens 1000 times with, you and Glennon, is that it isn’t even when people misunderstand you as a man. It’s like, we can be in a situation where everyone knows there are two women in this relationship, and yet you’re constantly being coercively gendered. So, on your, the day before your wedding… Wait, can I tell this story about-
AW:
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Do it.
AD:
So, the day before your wedding, when we were at the rehearsal, the wedding organizer at the church… There was no pre-discussion, it was as if it was like, “This is obviously the way it’s going to be.” She knew you were both women. She tells you, Glennon, where to stand and wait for the cue to walk down the aisle. And she told Abby, “Here’s where you stand. You’re standing at the altar, waiting for Glennon to walk down, and you’ll be there to receive her.” So even in that situation where everyone knows two women being married, it was understood and expected that there would be someone to fulfill the male gender role and someone to fulfill the woman’s gender role.
GD:
That’s right.
AD:
And the lady literally says to Abby, “You stand here.” And it was a ceremony, I get it. It’s a performance, but that, it’s just a microcosm of what happens to us 1000 times in everyday life. It goes back to what Abby was saying, is that our general discomfort, we think we’ve evolved to say, “Okay, we understand, you two women are getting married. Yay! We affirm you.” But also we still need to make sense of this within what we understand to be this immutable gender binary, where everyone has the role. And we’re just picking you up and putting you in this box. Does that feel comfortable?
GD:
“Abigail, you may kiss the bride.”
AD:
Right, right. Exactly. Exactly. And that, I just think that is, it’s just a microcosm of what happens 1000 times a day for us.
GD:
Well, it’s like what you told me about John and the law firm and the tax documents.
AD:
Oh yeah. So I get, back when I was working at a law firm, I was making way more than my husband. I was doing all of our financial planning, preparing all of the documents for taxes, send them over the accountant. I get back our filings. And it is always 100% of the time he is listed as the taxpayer. I am listed as the spouse. It’s like, it’s just assumed. It doesn’t make any damn sense. He’s never even talked to the accountant. I’m making more money. It doesn’t matter. He’s the taxpayer.
GD:
It’s like in school, when I get the email about like, who has to bring in the cookies or snacks to … And Craig doesn’t get the email.
AD:
Yeah.
GD:
Right? I’m on the cookie planning list. How? How did that happen? I don’t remember asking, anyone asking which one of us makes cookies or if either of us makes cookies.
AW:
Well, you, for damn sure, don’t make any cookies.
GD:
Thank you, babe. Thank you. This email has reached the wrong recipient to whom it must concern is not I. Okay. But let’s go back a little bit. Let’s talk about what actually is gender. Okay? Because first of all, who the freak knows? I feel like there’s one idea that I have resonated most with, which is that Judith Butler idea, that gender is actually just a performance. All right? Now, this is not … It’s just an idea that has resonated with me. And it’s like, we are all, we’re born. And then someone says, “This is what you are. And here’s the role you’re going to play. This is what a girl does. This is what a boy does.” And then we call them roles, right? Roles are for actors. We actually have costumes, right? You’re a girl. Here’s your colors. Here’s your outfits. Here’s your hair. Here’s your makeup. When people change costumes, wear the other role’s costume people lose their damn minds. We have directors who all direct us into these roles, like religions and families and media and peers.
So, it’s this idea that we are actually born, these wild humans, but we are assigned a role. And then for the rest of our life, we have to play that role. And if we step outside of that role, we are punished.
AD:
Yeah. That’s true. That’s true.
GD:
I used to see that so much as a teacher. As a teacher, like these little boys … Oh, God. I was a third grade teacher and God help these little boys if they would be at recess playing dodge ball and they would get overwhelmed and they would start crying. The teasing … That is outside. That is breaking character. Boys don’t cry. Boys don’t feel. Boys show weakness or mercy, right?
AW:
I feel so bad for those, for all the boys.
GD:
And you could … Me too! And you could see it happen. You could see them break character and be real. And then you could see the tribal shaming of the other boys and the teasing for the boys to see the weakness that they, themselves, are trying to hide inside of themselves. So they have to shun it, or the little girls would feel uncomfortable. Sometimes even the adults, “Knock it off.” It’s just like, it’s just to me, that idea of gender as performance has been something that rings true. What about you, sister?
AD:
Well, I think, I mean, it’s interesting, the roles, gender roles, because roles are also assignments of expectations and responsibilities. That is your role. You perform that role. You, your function is that role within the organization. And I mean, to me, I think, I mean, if you start with textbook definition of gender, it’s these behavioral, cultural, psychological traits that are typically associated by the culture with one sex. Okay? So what gender does is gender ascribes similarities within one sex and then differences between the sexes. And then we assign them different roles and responsibilities and different personalities and characteristics from birth. That’s what we do, but actually we do it before birth because we find out what our babies are going to be. And did you know that when we find out what our baby’s going to be, if it’s a boy, the words that we use to describe them are strong, tough, and handsome? The words we use to describe a girl are sweet, gentle, and kind.
GD:
I saw that on the internet recently, some dude, they said, “What do you hope your baby is?” And he said, “I hope it’s a girl.” “Why?” “Because girls are just more nurturing.” So this fricking fetus now has an additional mental load already. This fetus. It probably doesn’t have a fricking kidney yet.
AW:
To take care of her father, by the way.
GD:
Has to take care of her, daddy. Go ahead, sister.
AD:
But the thing is about gender is we view it as inherent and inborn in us, but really what is, is literally before we’re born, we start telling people who they are. And then as, and we do this a thousand different times a day. And then because people have different experiences based on us telling them what is expected of them? What is appropriate for them? What is taboo of them? What they get shunned for? They have different experiences. They become different people and it becomes embedded in them, their whole sense of self-worth and identity.
AD:
And so therefore, our responses to each of these cues we’re getting from society are our way of constructing and recreating the gender order because we are responding to what it is. So that-
GD:
It’s a culturally fulfilling prophecy.
AD:
That’s exactly right. That’s right. That’s what people say like, “Biology is destiny. That’s why it became the way it is.” But actually, culture is destiny because we are, because our, and that’s Judith Butler, it’s not biology, it’s culture, because the cultural way become so infused in us. We recreate it. It becomes part of who we are. And then we look back at who we are as evidence for the fact that the gender is born within us.
GD:
Yes. That’s right, that’s right.
Okay. So what … Have you all ever felt? I want to know from you, sister, because I actually know the answer to this question. Sister, Amanda, have you ever felt trapped inside of a gender role?
AD:
Well, if gender roles are certain characteristics that are acceptable for your gender, then absolutely the biggest way that I experience it is in my work life. And it’s actually been a lot harder than I imagined it because it’s kind of, Abby, what you said about constantly being reminded that this isn’t welcome here. You’re not, you don’t belong here. And so basically, what it boils down to is I’m very direct and confident and assertive in my job roles. Not always in everything else, but, and I feel like I ask questions that need to be answered. And I require people to answer them with facts and not just these patronizing assurances of, “It’s all under control. We got what we … You’ll be fine.” And so I give people the respect of giving, of speaking directly to them, which to me is a signal of respect. And also I drive things to mutual goals. So I am, in other words, if I were a man, what you would call a very successful businessman. Okay?
But since I am not a man, even though I lead us in attaining really good business results, I am constantly and always being labeled as “a lot,” or “tough to work with” or “aggressive” or “dominant” or whatever those words are when applied to a woman indicate that there was something wrong with me.
And so, the problem is it leads me to question myself a lot when I would never, if I were a man, be questioning myself in those positions, because I would never get the feedback that there was anything wrong with what I was doing. And I feel like it also creates another job for me, because I’m constantly walking this tight rope of remaining as direct as I need to be to reach the goal, but also doing this job that men never have to do, which is circling back to all of our team and partners and everyone we’re working with to make sure that everyone … to manage-
GD:
Feels good.
AD:
Everyone’s feelings.
AW:
It’s so fucking exhausting, literally.
AD:
It’s exhausting.
AW:
Oh my God. Just listening to you.
GD:
To make sure you add all your exclamation points and smiley faces.
AW:
Yes. I mean, we were on a phone call yesterday and I heard you doing it. And I’m so appreciative, because it’s about business and our lives. But sister, I am so sorry that you have to jump through all of those fucking hoops for somebody … So that you can also get what you want, and also by the way, they can get what they want. God.
AD:
Right. I’m working towards our mutual goals. I’m driving us towards our mutual goals. And then I have to go back and check in their feelings and their fragility about how they received the way I reached the results that they needed.
AW:
Jesus.
GD:
And times 10 if you’re a woman of color.
AW:
Yes.
AD:
Of course.
GD:
Times a million.
AD:
Uh, yes, times a bazillionteen times. Yes.
GD:
A man is passionate. A man shows big wisdom and emotion and he’s passionate, ambitious, and he’s a good leader. A woman shows the same passion and attention to detail, and she is controlling and emotional and mean, and unkind and ambitious, which has a negative connotation if you attach it to a woman as opposed to a man. I mean, I, over and over again … You know this sister. I’ve had partners we respect very much call me and say, “Okay, so I have the answers to your question because I know you’re a control freak.” And it’s like, “Wait if I were a man and I had asked a question about my own business, about a business that I am …” I had a question about my business, so I’m a control freak. It’s just nothing that they would ever, ever say.
And the idea of women who ask questions about their own lives, being “difficult.” I mean, I remember someone saying to me, “Well, you all, you just have to be careful. People are going to call you difficult to work with.”
AW:
It’s bullshit.
GD:
And I remember thinking, “You know what? What happens when you’re a woman and you get to a table of any sort of leadership?” What happens is you actually realize how much mediocrity is going on at that table. How much you have worked so hard to get there. And you’ve had to be perfect because you’re a woman. If you’re a woman of color, you’ve had to be perfect times 40. And so you get there and you are excellent, because you’ve had to be. And then you see how much freaking mediocrity is at that table, is allowed at that table. And so you start challenging it and asking questions. And that is difficult to them.
AW:
Yep.
GD:
That is what’s difficult. I once said, “Look, my team is not difficult to work with. My team is difficult as all hell not to work with. You’re just not working. If you work with us, we’re not difficult. We’re difficult to not be working with. Work harder, do better, and we’ll all be fine.” It’s so fascinating.
AW:
This is why more women need to be in leadership positions, because when they call us difficult, I know deeply, and we have to change this, but I know deeply that it’s because we’re being detailed, and we’re calling them out and we’re actually requiring more of the people around us.
GD:
Yes.
AW:
That’s exactly right.
GD:
Challenging mediocrity.
AD:
That’s right. Yeah-
GD:
Go, go ahead, sister. Sorry.
AD:
No. I was just going to say, to any … And then you say these things and people are like, “Ah, you’re making that up. You make everything about gender.” But what I want to say about that is that you, when you are walking through the world and working in the world as a woman, it is not that you’re making everything about gender. It is that everything that you do is received and interpreted through the lens of your gender. You don’t get to just do something. You are doing things as a woman.
And so, for example, they did this study of composers. They compose the music, the music gets played. They studied the critic’s response to the music when they knew it was a male composer and when they knew it was a woman composer. When they knew it was a male composer, they evaluated based on the technical musical attributes. When they knew that it was a woman composer, they said things about the perception of her mood.
AW:
No.
AD:
Yes, they did. They said, “She’s about something.” Okay. Okay?
AW:
What is wrong with people.
GD:
The world needs women.
AD:
This is her musical composition. So when you’re a man and you say, “You make everything about gender.” I say, “You get to be over there just creating music. Okay? That’s why you don’t have to think about music. That’s why you don’t have to think about gender. I’m over here creating music and I am being aggressive and angry.”
AW:
Yeah. Yeah.
GD:
Which is why-
AD:
I don’t get to just create music. You get to create music. So you get to discount gender.
GD:
That’s right. That’s why it’s the opportunity cost. And think about when race is applied also. Right? Now, you’re seeing me, I’m making music, but you’re experiencing it through my gender and my race. It’s not even about the music anymore. It’s what I said in the beauty, what I found over and over again, through when I put work out in the world.
So, when my male colleagues put work out into the world, the world looks at the work and judges it. When I put work out in the world, the world looks at me and judges me. Nobody’s ever even talking about my writing. It’s like, “Is she a bitch? Is she … Does she even have a right to put work out into the world? We have to shut her up before we even look at the work.”
AW:
Yep.
GD:
Right? It’s so … Wow. And the opportunity cost of that, when you think … I can’t remember who it was, but someone talking about … I think it was a Black woman writer. I’ll have to look this up. And she was, “Wouldn’t it be lovely if we could also just write about life?”
AW:
Oh my gosh.
AD:
Mm-hmm. Oh. That’s like how Luvvie’s book keeps getting put in racial studies categories in every bookstore. And so, because she is a Black woman, her writing is categorized as racial theory. Okay?
GD:
And she’s writing about fighting fear and leadership.
AD:
And she’s writing about her life and fighting fear.
GD:
Mm-hmm. That’s right.
AD:
G, do you ever feel trapped in gender roles?
GD:
Well, yeah. I mean, a million times every day, I guess something that I’ve been thinking about lately is in terms of career, in terms of decisions about what to do next as a woman in the world, I actually measure opportunities differently in terms of exposure. Okay? So I have a friend who recently … She’s a teacher, one of my dear friends. And she had an opportunity to become the principal of the school. And she was like, Glennon, I don’t know. I know how people judge women in charge, in power. Why … It’s like putting a target on my own back.”
There’s the fight inside of the woman that’s like, “Yes, I want to take that on. I want to change the world for my daughters, and yada yada.” And then there’s the part of the woman who’s … “Why?” Who’s like, “I know the world. I know that I will make decisions …”
AD:
Mm-hmm.
AW:
Yes.
GD:
Abby and I say this all the time and half the time we’re joking, but actually we’re not. Why do all of these things happen? Because the world hates women.
AW:
That’s right.
GD:
The world hates women, so and the world really hates women who dare to be out there and ambitious.
AW:
And successful.
GD:
And exposed.
AW:
Yeah.
GD:
And it reminds me of that, when in Miss Americana, which we loved so much because Taylor Swift has dealt with so much of this shit, where she said, “I just hope I can survive a while longer because I know that the world will only tolerate a successful woman for so long.” And that’s the damn truth. So, I mean, I would say in terms of trapped-ness, I measure exposure based on what I know about what the world will tolerate from a public woman.
AW:
That’s right.
GD:
And also, I have a specific brand of a gender role within a gender, which is that I’m a very femme woman. I present in a very femme way. And so I have had something that I’ve dealt with my entire career, which is that people, when I speak somewhere, or I when I … People say some version of, “You’re so smart.” Okay?
I’ve had entire articles written about me over and over again, calling me a Trojan horse. And I used to think that was so cool until I thought about it more deeply. And basically what I think people say, or what they’re trying to say without saying it and without knowing this is what they’re saying is, “I look at you and I think you’re going to be stupid and vapid and have nothing important to say. And then you open your mouth and I’m surprised, pleasantly, that you can form sentences.” And I’m like, “But I’m a New York Times bestselling author and …” Like, “What did you expect?”
So there’s this thing I’m constantly fighting, which is the expectation of idiocy with a femme or this puffy, like … I don’t know if people think I’m going to start talking about rainbows and unicorns and clouds and shit and stickers and kittens. I’m not exactly sure.
AD:
Stickers.
GD:
So what about you, babe? What about you and your dad? Because you have a totally different, obviously, experience than I do.
AW:
Yeah. I mean, I think it’s kind of interesting. All of us have very different experiences. I think I get trapped inside the male gender role a lot. And as it relates to yours and my marriage, it happens all the time. So we’re at a restaurant. When they bring the check, they give it to me.
GD:
Pisses me off.
AW:
Yeah. When we’re at the bank, there’s husband and wife. And even when we’re in business meetings, I don’t know if you notice this, babe, actually.
GD:
No, babe. I never do.
AW:
I do know you do. Sister, I don’t know if you notice this. We’re in literally a business meeting for Glennon’s business. I’m just like the side piece. I’m just the wife over here. And they will make more eye contact with me than they do with Glennon, talking about the future project that they want to do with Glennon. And there are times where they’re looking at me, and I actually have to point to Glennon and be like, “Talk to her. Don’t do this. Talk to her because you’re losing. Let me just tell you right now, you have lost this pitch…”
GD:
Because she hates you all.
AW:
“… never going into business with you.” But yeah, so here I am, and by the way, the irony in that, and I hope this isn’t telling too much, honey, but in our marriage, I am more of the stay-at-home parent than you are.
GD:
Yup.
AW:
Even though we’re both home and we work from home. I’m taking the kids to their sporting events and all the stuff. So, you should actually be more male gendered in our marriage in terms of the way that the gender roles and the norms are seen in the world. So, I think it’s really interesting.
AD:
Well, I think it’s about, that gender role is about authority. It’s about authority.
GD:
Mm-hmm.
AD:
And how that’s the whole old school head of household. It’s this is the head of the household. This is the person who’s voting on behalf of the household. So if I can convince the person at the highest order of this, then I’ve closed the deal.
GD:
Yes. And I think that we really do, two women in a marriage who are handling their business, is something that freaks the living hell out of every patriarchal bone in people’s bodies. I feel that it is like the ultimate threat to the patriarchy, because it’s like two women who don’t need you, who don’t need your roles, who don’t need a man. Not for money, not for power, not for a job, not for an orgasm. It’s a threat. It’s a complete challenge to what we have decided we need in terms of order and people playing roles. It’s like destroying the whole stage.
AW:
Yes. But I wonder from a man’s perspective, what would be most threatening, out of all the things you said, orgasm, power, money, what would be the most, the highest on that list.
AD:
I’ll tell you what it is. It is a gender-conforming trans man is the greatest threat. It’s the idea of distinctiveness threat. So anyone whose identity is tied very, very closely with the gender binary. So if I am a “dude’s dude,” I place so much of my identity in my maleness, my man-ness, then any time there is a threat to the boundary around my identity group. So “man,” that is a stark boundary. It is everything that has to do with my identity. When you start to blur and shift those lines to let into my group, a person who was assigned female at birth, who passes as a man, gets the respect of a man, is allowed to have my identity denomination, that is the biggest threat to me. It is why TERFs can’t handle gender-conforming trans women.
GD:
That’s right. Okay, so we’re going to go into next right thing because we have so many beautiful, beautiful freaking questions about gender roles that we’re going to save them all for our next episode. But let’s end with this. For our Next Right Thing, here’s what…we need help from our pod squad. For all of those of you who identified or want to help with this idea that even when people are well-intentioned, we might be kinder to have a different non-gendered address. Help us think of one, like, is it y’all? Y’all is sweet, but it just feels very Southern to me. So whenever I’m saying y’all, I feel like an imposter. Folks, friends, do we just leave it off? Because really do you have to say, “Thank you ma’am?” Can’t you just say, “Thank you very much?”
AW:
That’s right.
GD:
We need your ideas.
AW:
Why do we even have to do that? It’s so bizarre. We need your ideas. And also, I think, in terms of creating a new word or a new phrase, like you say, Glennon, there’s always a third way. It doesn’t have to be man or woman, we just have to go ahead and create it. So let’s just go make the world, the place, the most beautiful truest, beautiful place we can imagine.
AD:
And for folks for whom that is deeply uncomfortable… I went to the University of Virginia. I know how strongly folks feel about their sir and their ma’am. I feel like what I would just say to the people who feel real uncomfortable with that is ask yourself, “Are you saying those things because you deeply want to show respect for a person?” If so, please, please realize that that outcome is the opposite for the people that you meet, who you are misgendering.
GD:
That’s right.
AD:
Also ask yourself if that doesn’t resolve the situation for you, are you actually more deeply committed to showing respect for folks, or are you more deeply committed to identifying yourself as someone who knows the difference between how to be polite and how not to be polite?
GD:
Amen.
AD:
Because it is very possible that you are afraid of losing your identity and distinguishing yourself from other people who don’t know better so that you are othering people all the time.
AW:
That’s really good.
GD:
Okay, thank you, sister. And over and over again, what we learn when we enter any sort of conversation about race, as a white woman, I know my intention is much, much less important than the actual outcome. So over and over again, we’re saying the impact, if over and over again, but my intention is this and someone else on the other side is saying, but the outcome is this, but the impact is this, we let go of the buts and the intention and we listen to the outcome and the impact.
Okay. So, thank you so much. I think that there’s nothing more true to the we can do hard things idea, than just really having these tricky conversations that hopefully guide us towards maybe an uncomfortable, awkward, sometimes it feels like someone’s pulling a block out of the whole Jenga thing we’ve built and it’s all going to fall apart. And I love that feeling. So, thank you for allowing us to sometimes make things awkward because, blessed are the awkward, because they shall move things forward.
When things get hard this week, y’all-
AW:
Folks.
GD:
…don’t forget, we can do hard things. Thanks, y’all.