The #1 Relationship Strategy with Dr. Becky Kennedy
December 19, 2023
Glennon Doyle:
Welcome to We Can Do Hard Things. All right, so here’s the deal. I thought long and hard about what episode I wanted, Precious Pod Squad, as you head into the holidays. What is the one thing that we could just keep close to us? What idea, as we go into this time that is so fraught for so many people… Whether it’s too many people surrounding us, whether it’s not enough people surrounding us, whether it’s family that drives us batshit crazy, or whether it’s family that drives us batshit crazy, it’s the most time of year. Okay? That is what it is. It is the most. And I found myself watching a TED talk by my friend, Dr. Becky Kennedy, about the magic of repair.
Abby Wambach:
God, it’s so good.
Glennon Doyle:
She calls it the number one parenting strategy in the world. I think it might be the number one strategy in the world.
Abby Wambach:
Boom.
Glennon Doyle:
I think that if we take it with us in all its iterations as we head into this holiday… I don’t know what’s going to happen. I just think we should, okay?
Amanda Doyle:
But one thing we know for sure is that there will be plenty of opportunities for repair. That’s the only thing we know.
Abby Wambach:
Yes.
Glennon Doyle:
Yeah. And as we go into this episode, Pod Squad, I want you during this holiday to be going about your business, thinking about moments of repair, trying this shit. And then I want you to come back and tell us how it worked.
Abby Wambach:
Oh my gosh, that would be so fun to hear the voicemails.
Glennon Doyle:
I really do. I want to know if you screw everything up, and then you repair, or you try, I want you to stop your dinner and call our voicemail. And it’s going to be so great, you guys, because we’re usually trying not to screw up, but this holiday we’re going to be celebrating screwing up.
Amanda Doyle:
Because it’s going to be an opportunity for us to try the number one strategy. What if you don’t screw anything up? You’ll be wasting this new information to use the number one strategy in the world.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Everybody do not mess up your opportunity to mess up. You got to capitalize on it.
Abby Wambach:
That’s what I’m talking about.
Glennon Doyle:
It’s so freeing, right? Okay, so here to talk to us about repair, the number one strategy that we will use during the most time of year, is Dr. Becky Kennedy, who is a clinical psychologist, bestselling author, mom of three. She is rethinking the way we raise our children. She’s been named the Millennial Parenting Whisperer by Time Magazine. She’s the author of the number one New York Times bestseller, Good Inside, A Guide to Becoming the Parent You Want to Be. She’s the founder of the Good Inside membership platform and host of the chart-topping podcast, Good Inside with Dr. Becky, and her Ted Talk about repair is just being shared all around the land. So Dr. Becky, tell us about repair and how it’s going to fix our holidays.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yeah, it really is the number one strategy, period, in life. It is. It really is, because you all know this. You talk about it all the time. We’re imperfect beings. We are not robots. We’re humans, which means in every important relationship, we mess up, we struggle, or we just show up in a way that we wish we didn’t. And if that happens for every single person, it would only make sense for every single person to know what they can do after to feel empowered and to get things back on track for themselves and for their relationship.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And that’s what repair is. Repair is… really the act of returning to a moment where you are disconnected from someone. So you’re returning to that moment, you’re taking responsibility for your behavior, and you’re acknowledging the impact it had on someone else. And in doing that, and I’m sure we’ll get to… just so many amazing things become possible.
Glennon Doyle:
Okay? Like what?
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
I think the best way to explain the powerful impact of repair has to actually start with what happens when we don’t repair. Because actually just understanding that alternative shows the gap between not repairing and repairing and that gap is just massive. So I’ll use an example not with kids.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
It’s late one night. I’ve had a long day and I don’t know, my husband asked me some relatively innocent question and I snap back at him, “Oh, you’re the worst.” or, “Why would you ask me that?” or, “You’re always criticizing me.” Something like that. And then I walk out of the room, he’s probably left being like, “Okay, I don’t know what just happened.” Then maybe I go to bed and then I wake up the next morning like nothing happened. But I think we all know there’s not a closeness between us. We both are just holding on to what happens.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So what will happen if I don’t repair? Number one for me, I’m just carrying around this icky feeling that didn’t feel good to me. I didn’t like the way I showed up. Even if I’d say, “Hey honey, I wish you asked in different way. I’m not certainly not proud of my behavior.” I’m carrying that around. I probably also feel a little ashamed of it, which always makes us hyper vigilant to seeing other people and worrying that they’re thinking that about us as well. So it actually almost makes it more likely, “Oh yeah, my husband really does think I’m the worst person ever.” So I’m hyper vigilant to interpret ambiguous situations in a negative way. I am holding myself in a negative regard that’s not great.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
But then for someone else, when you’ve had a moment, you don’t feel good about kid or adult, that moment lives in their body too. We forget that, right? If I yell at my husband or yell at my kid, they’ve already registered the feeling. That does not make us a bad person. It’s just information. So once that feeling has registered, either I can go back to that moment and provide a story and offer connection and coherence and love on top of that moment or that moment just kind of lives on its own. And then the other person has to tell themselves a story about why that happened, right? And if you think about the story, especially kids tell themselves when their parents don’t repair often after yelling, it’s not a good story. Kids have to gain control. They’re like, “This is my parent who I love and it’s supposed to make me feel safe, but I feel bad.” You know what story they tell themselves? “I’m a bad kid. It’s my fault. It’s my fault.” Or they tell themselves another disturbing story. “I’m not so good at perceiving things. I can’t trust myself. That couldn’t have happened.”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So they either tell themselves a story of self-blame, “It’s all my fault.” or self-doubt. “I can’t trust my feelings.” And those are probably the two most powerful stories. Adults still tell themselves in a way that holds them back. And they’re not stories we tell ourselves as adults. They’re actually the legacy of those moments in childhood.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Versus if you do repair, what I get to do, and to me the image of this matters, is I get to go back to that moment. It’s a chapter in my kid’s life. It’s a chapter in my husband’s life, and I kind of get to reopen the book. I literally get to reopen the book and I get to go back to the point in the chapter. And instead of that being the ending, it’s like magic. I get to rewrite a very different ending to the story. And we all know when you write more of a chapter, the theme of the chapter changes. The title of the chapter changes. The lessons you’ll learn completely change because instead of that bad moment being the end point, that moment is just the part of a much larger story.
Glennon Doyle:
Okay, so this is my question to you about that. Because it’s actually like magic-
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes.
Glennon Doyle:
… You’re kind of changing the past.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
100%.
Glennon Doyle:
… Because in one of my many therapies, I have experienced this thing where the therapist takes you back to a moment in your life, in your childhood, and they’re like, “Okay, talk me through the moment.” And then they have me add things to the memory that weren’t there. “How would that go if you could rewrite it now?” So I might say, “Okay, well this person would’ve been here and this person, they would’ve said this instead of that.” And so this is a thing you do over and over again because memory is the thing that happened, plus every time you thought about it.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes.
Glennon Doyle:
Memory isn’t what just happened. It’s what happened, plus every time you thought about it. So if you think about it differently, if my 47-year-old self thinks about a memory from when I was 8 differently, it changes the actual memory of the thing.
Glennon Doyle:
So I think what you’re saying, Dr. Becky… Okay, let’s just throw my parents under the bus here because that’s what we do on this pod. So let’s say the thing happened when I’m 8. If they come back a week later and sit me down and say, “Okay, we’re thinking about that moment where we lost connection. We want to talk to you about it. This is what we could have done differently.” That memory is changing then instead of me having to wait until 47 to change the memory. It’s like Photoshopping life. It’s like magic. It’s changing the past for them as they go forward. Correct?
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
That’s exactly right. Yes. That is completely scientific. Memory is not a recollection of events. It’s events plus every other time you’ve remembered that event. And the thing I’d add or shift a little is it’s not just how we think about it. It’s new experiences. It’s really how we’re feeling and those new experiences… This is why therapy is effective. If you actually think about therapy, why does it change people’s life? Because the events in our past that impacted us still happened. It’s because when you have a series of moments where you’re recalling events in the context of a new safer relationship. The events remain and your story of the events change.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And you all know this. Stories are what matter to us. Events never actually were the thing that traumatized us. The story we told ourselves about events traumatized us and they only traumatized us in the first place because we were left alone with it and had to make up the stories ourselves as kids.
Abby Wambach:
This is why at 43 years old, I am literally going back into my life trying to figure out what is real. Because the story I have, I am now realizing, might not actually be real because I was left alone to my own devices to create the story. And so for so long, I’ve been in some ways blaming other people when in fact, a lot of this story I have told myself throughout my life is my own doing. And that’s a responsibility.
Abby Wambach:
So not only going back and trying to shift that story in some way, but it’s also important that that is my doing. That is my psychology. And that is how all of this… Obviously we want to repair this stuff, but there’s so many of us that didn’t get that opportunity. How do we do that now in our 43-year-old self bodies?
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And it’s important to say, so let’s say if it’s my kid, I yell at my son in the kitchen, he’s alone in his room. If I don’t go repair… Kids are so amazing. They’re so crafty. And so for all of us as adults listening to this who say, “I do tend to blame myself or doubt myself. Oh, why do I do that?” I really mean this. We should come at that with deep respect and appreciation for our childhoods. “I was alone and overwhelmed in my room and I figured out some way at my own disposal to tell myself a story to then operate in the world again and assume things were safe enough to continue and grow.” That is so compelling. And actually we can start to really shift things in ourselves when we do start to approach ourselves with that deep, not just compassion, but deep appreciation for what we figured out how to do. And I say this quote in my TED talk. To me, it’s just so powerful. I want to share it here.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Ronald Fairbairn said it many, many years ago, that for kids, “It’s better to be a sinner in a world ruled by God than to live in a world ruled by the Devil.” And to me, this explains almost everything in child development. That when you’re caught in a moment as a kid where something happened, especially if it’s with your caregivers who are supposed to keep you safe, that doesn’t feel good, you have two options. The badness can be outside of you or the badness can be inside of you. And as sad as it seems to say, “Oh, why would a kid put the badness inside?” What if a kid put the badness outside? You’d be literally psychologically unable to function as a small, helpless child. And so you take it in. You assume it’s your own.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And when I go repair with my son… You guys know I’m a very visual person. What motivates me more than anything else to go repair? Because me too, I’m like, “But he was so difficult.” And we all have all of our reasons we want to not do it. It’s just human. I literally imagined myself snatching the self-blame and the self-doubt out of his body. I do. I’m like, “I’m going to go get that. I’m going to go get it out. I’m going to take it out.” And he’s never going to really thank me for it. I don’t think he’ll understand. But I’ll know over the course of his life, that is one of the biggest privileges I can actually give him.
Glennon Doyle:
Oh, God.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
To think that sometimes when bad things happen in relationships, “It’s not my fault. I can’t trust my assessment that something didn’t feel good in a relational moment. I know that’s true, and it isn’t something I caused.” That is going to help my kids, my daughter, so much.
Glennon Doyle:
Yes. What is the difference between a repair and apology?
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So yes. I think the difference is how we feel. I think language around it, how I think about it, is apologies often in our life serve to shut a conversation down, right?
Glennon Doyle:
100%.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
We go to our kid and we say, “I’m sorry I yelled. Okay? Can we move on?” Or we say, “I’m sorry you felt that way.” Or we say, “I’m sorry, I yelled. But listen, if you just got your shoes on when I asked, I mean it wouldn’t have happened.” That is not a repair.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And I think again, the visual of the difference is an apology is like my kid’s sitting on a couch and I go up to them and say something and run away. And I’m like,. “Oh, good. I got it over with.”
Glennon Doyle:
Ooh. Check.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Where repair is sitting next to them on the couch and actually looking at them and lingering and kind of staying.
Glennon Doyle:
Yeah.
Amanda Doyle:
For anyone who is thinking to themselves, “That would’ve been great to know 35 years ago.”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes.
Amanda Doyle:
Or, “I’m not buying it.” Or, “It’s too late for me anyway, so what good is this, knowing this?” Are you willing to walk us through the exercise that you did-
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes.
Amanda Doyle:
… In your TED talk?
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes. And I just should say I love skeptics. I really do. I love skeptics.
Amanda Doyle:
This is why we get along so well.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
I do. Skeptics think deeply about things before they want to incorporate new ideas. I value that. And I think skepticism is a cousin of curiosity and curiosity is amazing, so they sit very close to each other. So appreciate skepticism.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
There’s very few things I say in a very direct way. I’m always like, “There’s a lot of nuance.” But to me, what I can say, with complete conviction, is not too late. It is never, ever too late. And to me, there’s evidence of research and things like that. I appreciate that evidence. That’s real. And I often do think that some of the evidence that gives us the most conviction and something is the evidence in our body. I really, really do. And so yes, I’d ask us to walk through this exercise.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So you are worried it’s too late. “My kids are older.” Or, “It’s not one thing I did. I’m didn’t yell at my kids. It’s like a pattern of things I did for 30 years. How do I repair for that?” Or, “My kid is already X years old. They’re cooked.” Here’s what I’d say.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So just imagine that you get a phone call right after you listen to this podcast episode from one of your parents. And for anyone whose parents are both deceased, imagine you get home and you find some letter and some drawer that you hadn’t seen until that moment. So we’ll walk through the phone call. “Hey, I know this is going to sound kind of out of the blue, but I’ve just been thinking a lot about your childhood. And there are so many things that happened between us that I’m sure felt really bad to you, and you were right to feel that way. I want you to know that I’m really sorry and those moments weren’t your fault. They were moments when I was struggling. And if I could go back, I just would’ve stepped aside and calm my own body and then found you to figure out what was really going on for you, so I could have helped you. And if you’re ever willing to talk to me about any of those moments, I’ll listen. I won’t listen to have a rebuttal. I’ll listen to understand. I love you.”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
I mean this. I don’t know many adults who are like, “Nothing. Got nothing. Nope. That had no impact on me. None at all.” And I remember actually doing this exercise for the first time with the therapy client who was a man in his fifties, who was very stoic on the surface, and he just said, “Why am I crying? Why am I crying?”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And why we’re crying, why we’re crying ever in things that don’t always make sense to us in the moment, is I think our body, a part of us is hearing something we’ve literally always needed to hear. And it’s relief. It’s relief of a part of us that we don’t even realize how many things we’ve held in self-blame. And what I know is if there’s a listener here who says, “Wow, that imagined exercise with my own parents would have an impact on me.” I feel like that’s all the evidence I would ever need to say, “Consider the impact an actual repair would have on your child who is younger than you.” Your child is always younger than you are, which means the stories of their lives are shorter and that much more amenable to editing. And so it’s not too late. It’s not going to change everything and it will change some things. It always does.
Glennon Doyle:
Can we talk a little bit about why it’s so damn hard to do it? Because the case for it is so obvious, that it almost begs like, “Okay, so duh. Let’s do it.” And yet, I actually find myself, when I’m talking about these things, I feel bad for the generation right before me or… Because they weren’t taught this. They were taught that a good parent… It’s easy for us to say, “Why the hell weren’t they doing this? Why were we all in our bedrooms alone trying to figure out the world? Why did no one apologize to us?”
Glennon Doyle:
But their model for what was a good parent was not that. It’s not that they thought they were being bad parents. They were trying to be good parents, but good parenting was seen as invulnerability. You don’t let them see you sweat. You don’t let them see your imperfection. You are infallible.
Abby Wambach:
Stoicism.
Glennon Doyle:
You said something so briefly on something recently where you said, “We are imperfect parents and that’s okay because we are preparing our kids for a very imperfect world.”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yeah.
Glennon Doyle:
We’re actually perfect for this shit.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes.
Amanda Doyle:
We are nailing it.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes. So why is this so hard?
Glennon Doyle:
Why is it so hard? I find… I can apologize to my kids like nobody’s business. I do it left and right. I do it 10 times a day. They’re so annoyed. I recommend with teenagers writing short letters, because they don’t want you to come to their room six times. But it’s very hard for me to apologize to Abby. Why is it so hard to apologize or to repair?
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yeah. Two reasons come to mind for me. So one. Having a really hard time apologizing can look on the surface being pretty cold hearted, and actually under the surface, there’s so much intense vulnerability. And it’s actually in that way very similar to why toddlers don’t apologize, right? We’re like, “Say sorry. Say sorry.” Because in a moment, if you have conflated your behavior with how you think about yourself as a person, “Oh, I yelled at my kid.” And then if you go into “I’m a horrible mom.” Let’s say, you will literally be unable to apologize from that place. You can’t repair because you can’t literally face the reality that you did a thing that made you a bad person. We can’t, as humans, feel bad inside. We actually can’t. It’s so disintegrating. And so we will avoid facing something if we think that thing brings on badness. It’s actually adaptive for us to avoid it.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So that’s one reason. Which is again, why when you think about kids who won’t apologize and we’re like, “What’s wrong with you? Say sorry to your cousin.” All we’re doing is actually making them more stuck in that. Or when we say to ourselves, “What’s wrong with me? I know I want to apologize to my wife. What is wrong with me?” Which is probably what we say to ourselves, also making ourselves more frozen in that shame state. Shame is really feeling bad and unlovable. So that’s one reason.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Related to that, but a little more concrete, is that we’re very used to telling ourselves the story of justifying our action by focusing on the other person’s actions.
Glennon Doyle:
Yes.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
It’s hard to separate those. So when it’s a kid, it’s like, “Well, I would’ve never yelled at my kid if they just listened to me the first time.” And it feels like, again, we mix up these things. And if I repair… We’ve told ourselves this story. It doesn’t even make sense. I’m laughing. If I repair, it’s like I’m saying to my 4-year-old that it’s okay they don’t listen to me. I don’t know who made that up, those equivalences. It’s totally not saying that. But we justify to ourselves or even think I can’t repair because I don’t want to reinforce my kid’s bad behavior.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And I think we even do that in our marriages. Because whenever we would repair, I’m sure there is something in someone else that triggered us or that we didn’t love, right?
Amanda Doyle:
Yeah, like, “I’ll repair as soon as you repair.”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
That’s right. Exactly. It’s like we’re in a standoff. “I’ll do it if you do it.” But I think what we really miss there is the gift of repair to ourselves. When you don’t repair in a relationship that’s meaningful to you, not only does it harm the other person and your relationship, it’s just… It’s such an awful feeling we walk around with.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And so I’ve been in my marriage too, where I’m like, “He has to repair first.” And honestly what helps me is I’ll say, “I’m really doing this for me. It’s going to benefit him. It’s going to benefit our marriage. But I hate this feeling and I know separate from what he did, I didn’t act in a way I’m proud of.” That’s true for me in a encapsulated way. And I’m going to feel better if I start out that way.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And so I think to make that, again, concrete is the missing step in repairing with someone else that most of us aren’t taught is you actually have to do what I call a self-repair first. And to me, repairing with yourself is the process of separating what I did from who I am. For anyone listening, not driving, I really recommend putting your hands out and separating them and looking at one and saying, “This is what I did. That’s my behavior.” And me and you both, we’d say, “I wasn’t so good. Nope, that was not a great behavior. That one. Nope. Okay.” And keep that hand far away from the other one. And then you look at the other hand and you say, “This is who I am. That’s my identity.”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So on the one side, you say, “What I did, my ‘bad’ behavior.” And on the other side, “Who I am. My good identity.” And when you remind yourself those are separate, and essentially, “I’m a good person who did not such a good thing.” You start to find your groundedness, right? Because now you can face the behavior because it’s not an indication that you’re some horrible monster.
Glennon Doyle:
So people who have a strong sense of self and who they are can apologize and can repair well. And people who might feel like they have adult imposter syndrome, where someone’s about to just figure them out every second in their marriage might not want to apologize because they think that the other person might figure out that they don’t know what the hell they’re doing ever.
Abby Wambach:
But you think that I haven’t done all of that equation already. I already know all of this.
Glennon Doyle:
I think that I’m a better actor than you.
Abby Wambach:
And I give you the more grace because I know that deep down you think that you’re a bad person and then I’m going to find it out. And I just don’t believe that and I’ll never believe that. So here we are.
Glennon Doyle:
I love that though, that it’s about self-knowing. That’s beautiful.
Amanda Doyle:
And I think that’s one of the reasons why we don’t repair with our kids-
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes.
Amanda Doyle:
… Is because we are worried that they’re collapsing the two hands. We are worried that-
Glennon Doyle:
Oh.
Amanda Doyle:
… If we walk back in there every week and a half and say, “Hey, remember I did the thing again. Not so great.” that they are going to take as-
Abby Wambach:
That’s good.
Amanda Doyle:
… The headline of that “Mommy is bad and mean, and I know it for sure because she keeps coming in here telling me that she was bad and mean.” But that is not true. You go back to Becky’s visual. We are not going back in there to save our reputation with our kids. We are going back in there to snatch the self-blame which they’re putting on themselves. We are not creating a gulf between us and our kids. We are adding back in safety and closeness.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes.
Glennon Doyle:
So good. Yes.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And when you do that, because I want to speak to all the very practical parents who are probably thinking… I would too. “But when’s my kid going to put their shoes on in the morning when I ask?” Okay. Because that’s really true. Because that’s how I think too about how are we going to get there? Because I like to have all the things checked off too.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
As long as you’re sitting there, not repairing, “Ugh. My kid. Yeah. I mean I guess I wouldn’t have yelled, but they never listen to me in the morning.” Okay? They’re not listening in the morning is only going to increase because now in their body they have more fear. Now they feel more disconnected from you. Guess what? The only reason kids listen is because they feel connected to you. They don’t really care about putting on their shoes and they’ll do it because they feel close and connected to you. So now decreased likelihood.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
But once I’ve repaired… And it’s not a repair, if you add, and I just have to say this, “Okay, but next time, listen and it won’t happen.” We know that.
Glennon Doyle:
Yes.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
We know how it feels ourselves. It just doesn’t count. It’s a good try. And next time we’re going to do a little better.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So a repair is something you first give yourself and then you give someone else. And actually the repair to yourself matters, especially for a parent. And this is… Because unless I’ve really repaired with myself and accessed really my own internal goodness separate from my behavior, I’m going to be looking for my kid to validate that in response to my repair. “Is that okay? Is that okay? It’s okay now, right? We’re okay? You still love me, right?” My kid is now having the responsibility of doing something that’s really not their job and is my job. And so by the time I go repair, I have to have done that for myself, so I can just give it. I’m not really expecting a response.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
But then the benefit is this. So in my family, let’s say, I yell at my kid. They’re never ready in the morning. I repair. “Hey, no matter what, it’s not okay to yell at you like that. That’s not your fault. I’m working on managing my feelings.” All that stuff. I then tell myself, and it’s so arbitrary, just like 24 hour rule. 24 hours later. Now that I’m reconnected with my kid and we’re on the same team, I can then say to my kid, instead of, “But you need to get your shoes on.” I could say, “Hey, you know what I’m thinking about? Neither of us like the mornings when there’s so much chaos and I’m just wondering what we can think about doing to just make putting on shoes a little bit easier. Let’s come up with that together.”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And any parent who’s like, “Do you think my 4-year-old is going to really come up with… ” Yes. Yes, they will, because kids are amazing problem solvers when they feel safe and connected, just like adults are. And so now that I’ve connected with my kid, I can actually get to the heart of things. Maybe we come up with, or maybe I realize, “You know what? It’s hard for a 4-year-old to know what to do. I’m going to put a little visual schedule. Nothing fancy, but just something at the door that says, ‘Socks, shoes, out the door.’ Maybe I put my kid’s socks by the door.” Because it’s just easier to get ready, right? Now I can actually do something practically helpful or help my kid build a skill they didn’t have in the first place, which would literally never happen if I was blaming my kid for my behavior.
Glennon Doyle:
I would like you to give us a couple examples of what is a good repair and what is actually not in fact a repair. It’s not a repair if we come in and say, “Here’s what Mommy did.” Or, “Abby, here’s what I did and it would have been so much easier. I’m so sorry, and it would’ve been better for me if you would not have started the whole thing.” Like that… Not a repair.
Glennon Doyle:
But the beauty of it, and I just think this is so gorgeous. It’s like… You know that Japanese pottery where they put the gold in and then it’s more beautiful in the cracks and it ever would’ve been without the cracks repair? It’s not the second best thing after you’ve screwed it up. It’s you will never have a more connecting tool in the world. You will never have something that makes you closer to your person than this thing, which means if you don’t have dropped moments of connection, which we call fuck-ups or whatever, if you don’t mess it up, you will never have this beautiful thing. It comes only if and because you dropped the ball or messed it up or overreacted or whatever you did. It’s gold that you only get if you do the screw up. It’s the opposite of how we think. “The best thing would be if we just didn’t screw up at all.” No.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
No.
Glennon Doyle:
That would not be the best thing.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
That’s right. That’s not a thing. And it’s true when you think about, especially with your kids or even with another adult, the world has ruptures. Our closest relationships have moments that don’t feel good. I often think the worst thing for my kids would be to go out into adulthood with a model of a relationship, which… Let me slow that down. The way we relate to our kid becomes the model they take into the world of what to expect in intimate adult relationships. We call those more sexual relationships maybe, right? That’s not what we have, but they’re both intimate relationships.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So I don’t think any of us want our kids going into the world saying, “You know who I’m looking for? A partner who is always perfectly attuned to my needs. Can’t wait to find that person.” That is a recipe for disaster. That’s just literally never going to happen. What I think the best it gets is a kid saying, “I’m looking for someone who in general tries to be attuned to my needs and care about them and when we have moments that feel really bad can own their part of that story.” I mean, that’s what I want for my kids. And they will not have that if I don’t repair, but they also will not have that if I don’t mess up. That is 100% true.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And so as self-talk, the next time you yell at your kids, and I mean it. I want you to hear my voice saying, “Okay, step one, yell at my kids. Crushed it, crushed it. Checked it off. Halfway there. Look at me. Head of the game. You know how people always say the first step is the hardest step? I already did it. I already did that hardest step. Amazing. Okay, what’s next? Oh, repair. Okay, I’m already on the path, right?” So truly, let’s get that reframe.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So in terms of the actual language in that moment… I’d also say that I don’t like to be too prescriptive because you’ll know what feels good, but also language can help us kind of walk through a door we’ve never walked through before. So to me, just naming what happened… Again, one of the things that removes self-doubt from a kid is just validating that their perception actually is true. So name what happened, take responsibility, and kind of say what you would do differently the next time. So that might say, “Hey, I’m thinking about earlier when I yelled at you in the kitchen”. And really for a kid they’re like, “Oh, that thing that did happen. I was… ” Right? “And I was right.” Right?
Amanda Doyle:
I was there. I was there.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes. A language I like, in general, to say to my kid is, “You were right to notice that.” I feel like that’s such powerful thing for kids to hear parents say. It’s kind of like, “You were right. That happened.” “So I’m thinking about earlier when I yelled at you in the kitchen. I’m really sorry and it’s never your fault when I yell and I’m working on staying calm, even when I’m frustrated.” Something like that.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And what I’m really doing there is I’m both reminding my kid that they actually are accurate perceivers of their environment. We can do another episode on that and how I actually think we train kids to tune out their perceptions.
Glennon Doyle:
Absolutely.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
“Don’t talk about that.” “Don’t say that. That’s not nice.” Or, “We don’t… ” Basically say to them, “Yes, you are really seeing what you see.” So we’re making sure we say, “Yes, that happened.” And then when you say to a kid… And I know this is tricky. When you say, “It’s never your fault when I yell.” I think that really matters. And I know it’s easy to say, but I wouldn’t have yelled if they didn’t complain about dinner.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
I always imagine if my kid is married and, I don’t know, their wife cooks dinner and it’s not very good, and they end up yelling and say, “Look, I’m sorry, I yelled. But it wouldn’t have happened if the dinner you made just tasted better.” I don’t know one parent who’d be like, “I’m so proud. That’s my boy.” “That’s my girl over there repairing like a champ.” I think we’d be horrified if we heard that. “I wouldn’t have yelled at you if you remembered toilet paper. I’m just saying.” And so you cannot apologize to your kid in that way and expect your kid to do anything other than that.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And so to me, I often think about that. And it’s not our kid’s fault when we yell. The truth is the way we regulate our emotions and our own circuitry was in our bodies way longer than we even had that child.
Glennon Doyle:
That’s right.
Amanda Doyle:
Amen.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And that’s when this happens. Right?
Glennon Doyle:
And it’s the goal. None of us are completely regulated.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
No.
Glennon Doyle:
But as a parent, that is a good goal. That is something to work towards.” I am working towards regulating my own anger.” And you can say that we’re never going to be there. So you can say that for the rest of raising your kid’s life, but it actually is the goal. It actually is what we, as adults… The dream that we want. That we should be able to be regulated to not be triggered by the kid’s behavior or anyone else’s behavior, because what you’re saying is for people who are listening that don’t have little kids and will not be repairing in that way over this holiday season, if your sister-in-law comes into the kitchen in the same scenario and asks you where the tofu is and you just have your turkey and you just tell her to shut the fuck up.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Yes.
Glennon Doyle:
That sucks. There’s a million moments like that over the holidays. Right? And so what you’re saying, Dr. Becky, is that you’re going to go back to your sister-in-law and you’re going to say, “You were right to notice how I told you to fuck off.”
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Some version of that. Well, first you’re going to take yourself to the bathroom, and I mean this.
Glennon Doyle:
Okay.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And you’re going to say, “Okay, I’m not proud of my latest behavior. My latest behavior doesn’t define me.” You have to separate that first, that self-repair. You can’t skip it. Right? And then, yeah, some version of, “Hey, I’m sorry I snapped at you. I’m feeling stressed. Wasn’t your fault. I’m sure that felt bad.” And I bet your sister-in-law is going to be like, that was the nicest moment of my holiday.
Glennon Doyle:
Yes, exactly.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
That was the best moment of my whole holiday. And if you are seeing family and you’re thinking, “I feel bad about something that happened last year.” I just want you to consider this. To me, the phrase when someone says to me, “I was thinking about… ” and then tells me something that happened a while ago. “I was thinking about what happened last holiday. And I don’t know if you still are, but I have, and I’m sorry.” My experience, like, “You were thinking about me for a year?”
Glennon Doyle:
Yes.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
“That’s so beautiful.” That is always received such an amazing way. “You were thinking about me. You are holding me in your mind. You are considering… ” That is so powerful for someone to hear and can, I bet, set your entire holiday week off in a different direction by just naming that from the start. So yes, I think in all of our relationships, we want to work on getting regulated a little bit more often and repairing a lot more often.
Abby Wambach:
Okay. I have a follow-up question to this because this is something that I find myself doing. I bring context into repair or other ways of saying that it’s excuses, reasons why-
Glennon Doyle:
Deep cut.
Abby Wambach:
… That I think are important. Can you include context or reasons-
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
So give an example.
Abby Wambach:
For me, recently something happened where I overreacted. I got woken up in the middle of the night. We have teenage kids. I overreacted. And so in the repair, I was trying to explain to them when I get woken up in the middle of the night, I got super triggered. Some of my past is a part of this. Can that be a part of a repair or is it like, “Hey, I really want to work on get overreacting in moments that absolutely don’t call for it and I’m really sorry.” I’m trying to figure out if I need to repair the repair.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Okay. Repair the repair.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
I want to first give you the ability to… I hate the term overreaction. If it works for you, then use it. But again, I would say there’s a story there. There’s a story there and it matters to understand it. So that’s number one. I think one thing I’d say is when we really do that moment or two, maybe it’s longer, of self-repair, we probably don’t feel as much of a need to provide context to someone else, because I think our context is a bid for someone else to see us as a good person.
Abby Wambach:
That’s right.
Glennon Doyle:
Yes.
Abby Wambach:
That’s right. Okay.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Having said that, it doesn’t have to be so black or white. I think I’d be like, “Is this useful for someone? Is this useful?” Sometimes in the moment, it’s not. I think we all know. When you’re receiving a repair, you’re smelling anything that feels like a not-repair. So again, I always like that 24 hour rule. If you feel like it is useful them to know, I could see it going back and saying, “By the way, again yesterday, not your fault. I really want to work on that for me, for you, for us, all of it. And I thought it might be good for you to know that when I do get woken up in the middle of the night, I’ve realized… ” I’m making this up. “Someone putting their hand on my leg is actually a much more soothing way for me to get woken up and it startles me less because there’s things from my past that lead to that startled response. And I just thought that might be useful for you to know. Again, not your fault.” But if you actually think that’s helpful to them.
Abby Wambach:
Got it.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And I think saying to yourself, “Is this helpful to someone else? Or is this a way I’m avoiding, kind of again, finding my own good identity?” That’s where I’d answer the question.
Abby Wambach:
That’s good.
Glennon Doyle:
That’s why I think it’s so interesting that I am really cool with apologizing to the kids all the time. I have a very hard time apologizing to you. You have no problem apologizing to me, but it’s so hard for you to apologize to the kids, but easy to apologize to me. And I think it’s because I have so much confidence in my being a good mom-
Abby Wambach:
Parenting.
Glennon Doyle:
… But I don’t have a lot of confidence yet about being a good partner.
Abby Wambach:
And I struggle with my confidence in parenting and I’m pretty confident in my ability to be a spouse.
Glennon Doyle:
Yeah, it’s interesting to think about who are the people that you have the most trouble apologizing to because it’s probably because you’re insecure about your part.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
It’s such vulnerability. I feel most vulnerable there. I question myself and… Whatever. My lovability, my “Good-enoughness,” there the most, right?
Abby Wambach:
Oof.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
And that framework is so powerful, at least for you, Glennon, and that’s so powerful to know about Abby, and when she’s struggling with the kids, in some ways, just saying to her, “Look, you’re a great parent.” That’s probably more helpful, ironically, to help someone go repair than anything else, because they’re trying to access that.
Glennon Doyle:
You have told me that. You’ve told me that. You’ve been like, “I need you to be on my side. I need you to be on my side.” So that’s what you’re saying, is, “I need confidence so that I can… ”
Abby Wambach:
Wow.
Glennon Doyle:
Okay, so you all… We’re going to go into these holidays or whatever we’re going to spend the next week. We are going to hopefully screw up so much that we have example after example-
Abby Wambach:
Ample opportunity.
Glennon Doyle:
… Of these repairs that are going to be just life-changing and we cannot wait to hear how they go well and how they don’t.
Abby Wambach:
Yes.
Glennon Doyle:
Okay.
Amanda Doyle:
May your cup runneth over with opportunities to repair.
Glennon Doyle:
Our number, if you want to stop, if you want to get up from the holiday table and tell us about the repair, is 747-200-5307 and you all, I love you so much, but when you call us, it’s actually not a podcast length of time that we can hear your voicemail.
Abby Wambach:
They’re amazing though.
Glennon Doyle:
Just try to smoosh it. Smoosh it into a smaller amount of time.
Abby Wambach:
And Happy Holidays, y’all.
Glennon Doyle:
Happy Holidays every… Or Happy-ish Holidays or holidays.
Amanda Doyle:
Have a wonderful holiday.
Abby Wambach:
Or less Happy Holidays and give us a call.
Glennon Doyle:
Yeah. Dr. Becky, thank you for everything. I’m just going to book you again for in a few months, so we can-
Abby Wambach:
We love you.
Dr. Becky Kennedy:
Can’t wait.
Glennon Doyle:
… Figure out what else the hell you’re thinking about. Happy holidays. We love you, Pod Squad. Go forth and repair.
Glennon Doyle:
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