Gone.
Because of a big brother whose rapidly changing face, voice, and demeanor keep insisting that he’s ready for more. Maybe a big yellow bus, maybe a brand new school and new friends, maybe a little life of his own beyond our front yard.
But not today. Today he’s still ours.

Because of a little girl who makes me think: I should probably quit now. Because I will never, ever make anything more beautiful than you.
Because of a teeny one who has recently discovered that life is not fair. Because of a baby who is, officially, TWO.
Who now points at me in the midst of her fury and yells, “I SAD AT YOU, MOMMY!” And thus, the separation has begun. She has learned that not only am I not the solution to her problems, but perhaps the cause of them.

And so she flails and kicks on the Time Out stairs screaming, “I SO FWUSTWATING!“
To which I reply, “Oh, sweet girl. I just couldn’t agree more.”
Because, in our family, nobody suffers alone. Although I really wish they would.
Because all three of you were in the same place today. With not much on your minds, other than each other, and your snack, and the breeze, and When’s daddy coming home? and What’s for dinner, mommy? Which is cereal and pickles, for your information.
Because daddy surprised you and came home early. Because I left him a message at noon and said: You gotta come home, baby. You’re missing a special day. It’s TODAY, honey. And because daddy said, Okay, I’m comin’. And he did.
And because after the squeals and the hugs and the You’re HOME, Daddys! it was up the stairs and across the porch and Me first! and into the house to wash off the dirt and the chalk and the sweat of a delicious summer day. And because of pulling your slippery bodies out of the water and wrapping you in towels and smelling your necks till you wriggle away, and watching you scurry bare bottomed through the kitchen. Chasing each other. Always chasing each other. Sisters.
We have days ahead of us, my babies. Big, eventful, memorable, important days. But there will never be one more beautiful than today.
Don’t ever forget that.
Sweet Dreams.